Switching Off Our Life for few moments.

Sometimes I feel a bit like a manic inside my head... 

I think my mind is like train tracks going off in all different directions.

Too many things I am always doing at once! 

It all goes round in my head, trying to juggle it all and figure out how to accomplish it.

Sometimes it makes me feel anxious. 

It feels like there isn't enough time in my life...

I live my life running, doing the things I have to do so I can do the things I want to do! 

I don't want to give up the wants to's either... they are my passions and enjoyment. So at times its a battle with myself of what will I choose!

It is a whole thing to learn daily to choose what I do and don't do and I must remember that the 'to do' list is a list that is infinite one that is constantly being added to.

Finding peace and serenity in all of this is so important, learning to find out rest and time out.

I'm thankful for every moment that I can do the things I enjoy and enjoy my life as much as possible.

An Angel for him

23rd September 1989, biggest idiot ever was born. Within few days of his birth, the management team up there at heaven realized, that this idiot wouldn't be able to survive among the wise, intelligent and cruel people who already existed on planet. After long hours of meetings, finally a decision was taken

"This kid needs a sister, who takes cares for him and guides him through some difficult times of his life"

Immediately an e-mail was sent to his parents. And the response was negative.

"Something has to be done"; God announced.

Exactly 105 days later, 5th January 1990, a decision was taken to send an angel, specially for this idiot. A girl was born in his family, (maamu-maami's daughter) And that day on she was always with him, probably she had strict orders from the almighty to do so.

As they grow older, the bonding between them went stronger and stronger; specially in their teens. He often used to spend the weekends with her, discussing the weirdest range of topics, from newest crushes to newest gadgets. Being in the same class, they often solved maths together and he always kept wondering how she answered multiplications like 754*23 so quickly. Being creative in nature she always kept surprising everyone with the new new things she came out with.

One of the most beautiful things i remember about their relation was that the girl used to call him bhaiya, despite of being just 4 months younger. And he loved being called "bhaiya", until he realized that her friends also called him so :p :p :p... But still he loved to be her elder brother, and care for her, share some exclusive secrets with her. Together they had some best times, so many trips, so many dinners, so many ice-creams...and some endless moments to cherish.

2009 was the year

Suddenly lord asked his management team, "yaar its been 19 years; how is our special angel, have been missing her lot these days, bring a report on her".

Best daughter any parents could had, best sister any brother or sister could have, best friend any friend could get...& best person the boy had ever met. God realized that the angel has done her job superbly, he immediately passed orders, bring my angel back, the heaven needs her, i need her...

Actually that day a war was declared between the heaven and the family on earth, which longed for almost an year, none wanted to let go off her. It was 23rd April 2010, she finally took the decision...

She made him learn so much, so so much through her thoughts, her expressions, her care, and specially with her powerful smile that even in the most difficult times he manages to smile. Though she's not with him anymore, but actually she is still there :))

PS : I miss you...

Back Smiling :)

If you are wondering when did i stopped smiling just check the last post (Dont want to go college..); and god damn i realise now i again opted for the wrong choice ! Now finally realised that every moment is precious and may be there are moments to come when i will be more happy then i was in past..dont believe as if now, but someone said that it will definately happen. Enjoy the crapniness of the college life till then (i know there's no dictionary meaning to crapiness but u guys must have understood it); grrrr i am angry with myself that i was lost in all that sad thoughts ! Chuck off with these thoughts for now, and me back to business - So baby "how u doin" ;)

P.S. Thanks to all those friends who talked me thru this and specially aanchal, conversation with you really made me think positively !

True Beauty as i see it !!

I categorize beauty under true and superficial headings. This Generation next (Gen-next) have lost the line which defines the difference between the two. They confuse the beauty of the eye and the beauty of the heart - two things that could not be farther from each other.

Of late, our minds have been set on the superficial beauty, tossing aside true beauty - the beauty of the soul - for physical prowess.

There are few truly beautiful people left in the world, but when you meet one, it is obvious. They smile warmly and truly, shining a light from their purity almost unknowingly onto you. And through that smile, you feel that that person really does care. They listen intently to what you say, encourage your ideas; they mean it, they remember what you’ve said or done. They treat everyone like they are amazing and worthy and honestly outstanding. They don’t judge or make you feel bad, and they are so very easily trusted. But most incredible, a truly beautiful person brings out your true beauty - just by being themselves, a person with true beauty can make you reach farther, try harder, dig deeper. They believe in you and want you to succeed.

But all that is just detail though. Because there is one sentence to describe a truly beautiful person, one sentence. That’s all.

"True beauty is the ability to love unconditionally"