Switching Off Our Life for few moments.

Sometimes I feel a bit like a manic inside my head... 

I think my mind is like train tracks going off in all different directions.

Too many things I am always doing at once! 

It all goes round in my head, trying to juggle it all and figure out how to accomplish it.

Sometimes it makes me feel anxious. 

It feels like there isn't enough time in my life...

I live my life running, doing the things I have to do so I can do the things I want to do! 

I don't want to give up the wants to's either... they are my passions and enjoyment. So at times its a battle with myself of what will I choose!

It is a whole thing to learn daily to choose what I do and don't do and I must remember that the 'to do' list is a list that is infinite one that is constantly being added to.

Finding peace and serenity in all of this is so important, learning to find out rest and time out.

I'm thankful for every moment that I can do the things I enjoy and enjoy my life as much as possible.

Love You Till The End.

Isn't it amazing when you have that one friend, with whom you are the true you, the true being of yourself. You just want to share everything, and even silliest of the things. The one who understands your's silence. The one who's always there to guide you, support you. 

And isn't it million times more amazing when you have such friend right there in the family, right besides you. But when that person leaves you forever and all you have is just the feeling of that person around you and the beautiful memories shared, its infinite times painful. Life no longer remains the same.

I just want to see you 

When you're all alone 

I just want to catch you if I can 

I just want to be there 

When the morning light explodes 

On your face it radiates 

I can't escape 

I love you 'till the end 

I just want to tell you nothing 

You don't want to hear 

All I want is for you to say 

Why don't you just take me 

Where I've never been before 

I know you want to hear me 

Catch my breath 

I love you 'till the end 

I just want to be there 

When we're caught in the rain 

I just want to see you laugh not cry 

I just want to feel you 

When the night puts on it's cloak 

I'm lost for words don't tell me 

All I can say 

I love you 'till the end

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PS : I miss you so much..

Single Sibling !!

"You don't know being a single sibling is a blessing from God", "You are a single kid, you have no idea how lucky you are", "You must be getting all the attention", "You must be getting whatever you ask from your mom dad.." & so on....

I generally hear such philosophies from people who don't belong to this category of being single child. For them being single is like some great great thing. Try putting yourself in following situations i'm going to scribble below..

• You are experiencing an emotional breakdown, its 3 in the morning, do you expect to trouble your parents every time for small small issues of life.
• You and your mom-dad don't agree on some demand of yours, and you have nobody to back you.
• You get an over protective care from them, and its start getting irritating after some time.
• Very often you tend to be the total focus of attention of parents, especially non-working mothers. Child space and independence goes zero.
• Most of the time our parents are correct, but sometimes the generation gap do jumps in, and you alone cannot make them understand it.
• You just had a terrible fight with them, at least there should be someone to tell you who was correct.
• You just fell in love with a beautiful girl in college...
• And in my case, whom to tell when i get a new crush every month or two..
• You want to play double player games.
• You want to abuse someone, knowing that you would get abused in return without any harm feelings.
• You need someone to tell, the shirt you wearing isn't looking good on you.
• You need someone to fight with.
• You generally get over-depended for small small things.

You generally find substitute for your sibling, be it in cousin form, girl-friend, or your best/special friend,...but you will always land up realizing that you have a limit for that as each one of them have a life of their's own..and you cannot intrude into it every time you get an emotional breakdown or got a new crush... moreover the personal touch still remains missing.

I agree the positive points for being single kid must be equally strong, may be it so !! As the grass always looks greener on the other side of the fence. But still i personally feel being a single sibling isn't good for me at all..

Take some time out..

>>Being Busy - An easy way out for avoiding things or people whom you don't want to interact with. But what if you are really busy, specially if you are a student..got loads of things to do.

-Sessionals

-Assignments

-Relationships

-Mood Swings

-Money management

-Blogging

-Hangouts

-Individual passions

-Facebook

-Girlfriend/Boyfriend

But have you ever wondered, all the things in the above list take you away from real you. You mold yourself in a socially acceptable cast. In tech terms you program your thought process to being busy all the time so you don't get to know the real situation of your life.

Take some time out..

Just one day dedicated completely for you. With your loved ones, and i guess Sunday's perfect or some holiday. Other than this go for a long-drive alone with no destination to reach. Take a small walk, and if its raining nothin compared to it. Do some crazy things.

Smile alone with no reason, sing out loud your favorite music numbers, break an old empty pen, watch tom and jerry, kiss your parents gud nite, change your hair style, see some old photos, and a long deserved sleep..most of the online addicts really need some sleep. Sleep for 12-14 hours.

And most importantly whenever you do this, or even if you have done so...please share it with me. I would love to hear it.

PS- I am very happy today !!

Back Smiling :)

If you are wondering when did i stopped smiling just check the last post (Dont want to go college..); and god damn i realise now i again opted for the wrong choice ! Now finally realised that every moment is precious and may be there are moments to come when i will be more happy then i was in past..dont believe as if now, but someone said that it will definately happen. Enjoy the crapniness of the college life till then (i know there's no dictionary meaning to crapiness but u guys must have understood it); grrrr i am angry with myself that i was lost in all that sad thoughts ! Chuck off with these thoughts for now, and me back to business - So baby "how u doin" ;)

P.S. Thanks to all those friends who talked me thru this and specially aanchal, conversation with you really made me think positively !

Truth Of Life

If you toe the line and just keep mute about your grievances to their perpetrator,you are good.But the moment you stand up for yourself and voice your opinion, you are the vamp.

True friends are those who stick by no matter differences you have.

PS- thats something i realized and this post is not intended at anyone, so please keep your brickbats away! :|