first step

Just was going through some random pics, and found this one. Instant question striked me.."am i still that innocent as i used to be durin that time of my life..??" and there was no answer..!! Clearly it seemed like i had doubts on my innocence :(

what ruined it, what made me have doubts...lots of questions with clearly no answer ! But whatever the reason was, whatever the situation was....neither it were my frnds, nor were my parents but i know one person who i am confident enough to say that he ruined my innocence..and that person is me..

"We always have a choice.." it took me so long so understand this, till then i opted for some wrong choices. There are trillion moments in my life, which i regret of making the wrong choice!

But today the being the last day of month and last day of my excellent summer break....i am planning to leave past in past and beginning a new life with all the same philosophies of mine but with 100% more innocence and happiness.. :)

Wish me luck..!

P.S.

Was just about to post this, mom came to my room..wishing me gud nite along with a gud nite kiss..no better way of beginning new life without the wishes from my mummy after all she guide's us for the first step of our life..

Learn to Say No

~Everytime you say yes to something that is unimportant, you say no to something that is important~

"Yes Boy" and "Yes Girl" never create anything great. I regret in being the "Yes Boy" category earlier in life, but now i have learned to say NO. Beleive me there's huge value in getting good at saying no.

Say no to the friend who wants to meet over coffee to gossip unless you are totally free... ;) and hell bored. Say NO to the co-friend or co-batchmate who wants to spread his/her negativity and cynicism. Say no to the people who laughs at your dreams and makes you doubt yourself. Say no to the social obligations that drain time from your life's work again unless you dont have any work..!!

You can't be all things to all people. The best among us get that. Know your priorities. Know your goals. Know what needs to get done over the coming weeks, months and years for you to feel that you played your best as a human being. And then say no to everything else. Sure some people around you might not be happy. But would you rather live your life according to the approval of others or aligned with your truth and dreams?

Can u say No ???

Parent's Day :)

~ The joys of parents are secret, and so are their griefs and fears: they cannot utter the one, nor will they utter the other ~

"Main Kabhi Batlata Nahin

Par Andhere Se Darta Hoon Main Maa
Yun To Main,Dikhlata Nahin
Teri Parwaah Karta Hoon Main Maa
Tujhe Sab Hain Pata, Hain Na Maa
Tujhe Sab Hain Pata,,Meri Maa"

"Papa kehte hain bada naam karega
Beta hamara aisa kaam karega
Magar yeh to koi na jaane
Ki meri manzil hai kahan"

Two beautiful songs for the two beautiful people in my life whom i luckily call as my parents. Its been 19 years they are with me guiding me through each and every single moment of life. And the most difficult part tolerating my cries, arguments, useless needs. There have been times when i used to feel lonely being the only sibling, but they helped me come out of it beautifully...! And its been lately i feel the parent-kid tuning is getting stronger and stronger. Common liking of me and my dad...ice-creams, music lovers, long drives, gadget lover, excellency in poor jokes... add to the father-son bonding !! And mummy on the other hand always ready to hear every bit of thing happened around the time , though i trouble her too much...but she's always there for me ! And the first one to judge my mood..and knows how to revive my smile..!

Being over protective about me makes me get a lill irritated some times, but then i think they are my parents and they have to be that way only.As there is a famous saying "To understand your parents' love you must raise children yourself."- but i dont need to do that, i beautifully understand it.

To my Parents From Their budhu Son.. ;)

DON'T SPOIL ME
I know quite well that I ought not to have
all that I ask for. I'm only testing you.

DON'T BE AFRAID TO BE FIRM WITH ME
I prefer it. It makes me feel more secure.

DON'T LET ME FORM BAD HABITS
I have to rely on you to detect them in early stages.

DON'T MAKE ME FEEL SMALLER THAN I AM
It makes me feel stupidly “big”.

DON'T CORRECT ME IN FRONT OF PEOPLE IF YOU CAN HELP IT
I'll take much more notice if you talk quietly with me in private.

DON'T MAKE ME FEEL THAT MY MISTAKES ARE SINS
It upsets my sense of values.

DON'T BE TOO UPSET WHEN I SAY “I HATE YOU”
It isn't you that I hate but your power to thwart me.

DON'T PROTECT ME FROM CONSEQUENCES
I need to learn the painful way sometimes.

DON'T TAKE TOO MUCH NOTICE OF MY SMALL AILMENTS
I am quite capable of trading on them.

DON'T FORGET HOW QUICKLY I AM GROWING UP
It must be very difficult for you to keep pace with me, but please do try.

DON'T MAKE RASH PROMISES
Remember that I feel badly let down when promises are broken.

DON'T FORGET THAT I CAN'T EXPLAIN
MYSELF AS WELL AS I WOULD LIKE
This is why I am not always accurate.

DON'T TAX MY HONESTY TOO MUCH
I am easily frightened into telling lies.

DON'T BE INCONSISTENT
That completely confuses me and makes me lose faith in you.

DON'T PUT ME OFF WHEN I ASK QUESTIONS
If you do you will find that I stop asking and seek my information elsewhere.

DON'T TELL ME MY FEARS ARE SILLY
They are terribly real and you can do much
to reassure me if you try to understand.

DON'T EVER SUGGEST THAT YOU ARE PERFECT OR INFALLIBLE
It gives me too great a shock when I discover that you are neither.

DON'T EVER THINK THAT IT IS BENEATH
YOUR DIGNITY TO APOLOGIZE TO ME
An honest apology makes me feel surprisingly warm towards you.

DON'T FORGET THAT I LOVE EXPERIMENTALLY
I couldn't get on without it, so please put up with it.

DON'T NAG
If you do I shall have to protect myself by appearing deaf.

DON'T FORGET THAT I CAN'T THRIVE
WITHOUT LOTS OF UNDERSTANDING & LOVE
But I don't need to tell you that, do I?

" Wishing U both a happy parent's day "
Luv u..

Your's dumb kid..

My First Tag..

Just Copied this tag from fellow blogger's blog...
Feeling exciting to attempt these question's...hope no tricky question..

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
not exactly after but my elder brother sahil insisted for my name as "rahil" so that he gets a rhyming name..rahil - sahil ,u see.. :D

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
its been a while now..but cried coz i felt bad about how i behaved with someone close..

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
absolutely yes...even i have received prizes in calligraphy competitions both in english and hindi during my school says...though my writing these days is getting bit bad.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH?
butterchicken with prantha..

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
no but will have two some day :)

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
surely or i would have missed out on a great friend..

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
*gasp* sarcasm and me?!! :)

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
ahh..what question is this.,??

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
maybe yes.. :)

10.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
chocos in cold milk..

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
why wud i doe this...each of them lies in the opposite corner..but everytime i have to wear them again they are united...i still havent figured who does that..

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Butterscotch...anytime..i love the sugar crunch in it :P

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
almost everything..

15. RED OR PINK?
None of the two..

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
my boring nature..

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST ?
school friends..luv u guys..and ofcourse gals :P

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
anytime!!

19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
on bed right now...not wearing any.. :P

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Bread butter this morning with cold cofee :)

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Yeh Hosla from movie Dor..

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
blue

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
earth after the rain, smell of the skin after a recent shower.., axe deo's..

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
antriksh...just 1 hour back!! Planning a hangout this evening.. :P

25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
Copied this tag...no one send me this :P

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
tennis anyday..

27. HAIR COLOUR?
Black

28. EYE COLOR?
Black

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Nopes

30. FAVORITE FOOD?
Junk food...specially pizza

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy endings for sure.. :)

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Harry Potter And the Half Blood Prince..

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Not wearing shirt right now, still in grey night suit...its sunday..full relaxation day !

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter...i hate the sweat and creepy insects in summer..

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
yummy both [but kisses restricted to someone special only]

36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
anything having chocolate in it...

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? ??
"arrey tension kyu lete hoh.."

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? ??
aww sweetheart.. come to me..

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
None..

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
Mouse pad is missing :)

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
i dont remember watching tv at all :P , though watched friends on laptop..

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Beatles...havent heard rolling stones that much

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME???
kanya kumari...school tour 9th class

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Talent and me?? you suggest something

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Jammu

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
Everyone..:)

Its only wid special people..

...conversation between two special frnds...an heated one..

Joey : I want to live independently now, i am shifting to a new apartment. Are u ok with it??

Chandler : (sad and angry looks) I'll be fine. I will just turn your bedroom into a game room or something...yeah i will put the foosball table in there.

Joey : Woh woh woh,...why do you get to keep the table? I will take it to my new apartment.

Chandler : well..I did pay for half of it.

Joey : yeah....And i paid for the other half.

Chandler : All right, i will play you for it.

Joey : All right, you are on. Well i can take two minutes out of my day to kick your ass.

The game began after few hours...

Joey : Hit the ball, pass it pass it...

Chandler : Get it out of the corner, quick quick..

After few minutes..

Joey : YES,its a goal. And the table is mine.

Chandler : Congratulations (and then he leaves the room without sayin a word)

After few days...joey finally shifting his stuff to his new apartment.

Chandler : So umm...you want me to..give you a hand in shifting the table downstairs to the delivery truck..?

Joey : naah..you keep it. You need the practice.

Chandler : Thanks !

Joey : hmmm...so i guess its the time for me to leave. take care.

Chandler : Yeah.

Then Joey leaves , chandler walkin back lonely in his apartment,... seconds later joey bangs open the door and running he jumps over his best friend and hugs him tightly.

This was what my title is all about, these things can happen only wid special people. Another example is of me and my cousin samadh. We fight a hell lot..actually we fight daily and on the silliest topics one can ever imagine. But at the end of the day while dropping him home we wish each other the best of best wishes we can..Recently he has gone to delhi..its been just 3 days and it might be few more days before he comes back but i am missing him like anything ! On the day he was leavin we had a fight and that time it was a good one..!! Last few minutes before he was leaving i even had stopped talking to him. But before the final departure, he came to me and said "Abh itna bi kya nautanki, chod na yaar" And he hugged me...i literally had tears in my eyes. It was this separation thing which brought me more close to him...



So why it is always that we realise the value of the person after we get a fear that we will be losing him/her soon..i think its this default nature we humans have with our special people. And i think we can do nothing about it,

Only way is to make best use of time, and never leave a chance to say to your special ones how much u love them and how desperately u need them in your lives.

Here is a small list of people who mean a lot to me, and i want to tell you how much i love you and care for you.

papa (if just went thru this post, i want your comment), mummy, rikita, ridhima didi, soumil , manu bhaiya, samadh, shakun didi, sumeen didi, sahil bhaiya, monica maami, shalini ma'am, jyoti ma'am, sujata ma'am, rama ma'am, mehak, taresh, sukriti, aakarsh, kunal, udit, aanchal, malika, kumar, antriksh...! I dont think i left out anyone. But if by mistake i did due to my poor memory, i am damn sorry and will update this post as soon i remember any such name..!

Love u and miss u all..

Guitar Rhythm on the move..

"Na… nan nan na na na
Nan nan na na na
Nan nan na naaaa…
Naa… nan nan na na na
Nan nan na na na
Nan nan na naaaa…

Yaaro jee bhar ke jee le pal
Lagta hai aaj kal
Daur apna aayega
Yaaro jo khud pe ho yakeen
Toh zindagi haseen
Tujhe kal bulayega
(Hai junoon oooooonnnnn
Hai junoon sa jeene mein
(Hai junoon sa jeene mein)
Hai junoon oooooonnnnn
Hai junoon sa seene mein ) "

....it seems like so much musical these days ! Finally my wish that was pending since last few years finally came to completion, well not actually to completion but atleast it started...i just started learning guitar !!

Playing weird rhythmic strokes 3am in night..it feels so gr8. Always wanted to do so !! Well i think it was in my genes...actually my papa also wanted to go for it. So when i play my strokes i see the smile on his face..! & I love that smile.. :)

Whenever i play my strings, i always get phoebe buffay character from friends TV series on my mind, i simply love her songs. Shezz my idol....lolzz..

Hoping to play great music, and not the awful sounding music as i have been playing lately. Wish me luck.. ;)

Sometimes i Want to..

gO back 2 d time when getting high meant on a swing. When drinking meant apple juice. When dad was only hero. When love was mom's hug. When dad's shoulder was d highest place on earth. When ur worst enemies were ur siblings. When d only thing dat cud hurt wer wounded knees. When d only things broken wer toys. Whn friends used u for nothing bt borrowing pencils. N whn GUDbye's meant only til tomo. Now memories make us realise life has changed so Much...yet going beautiful thankful !

Sitting alone in my room i often realise how lucky i am too have a such a wonderful world around me...best parents anyone cud ever had, best cousins and best friends...!! And moreover beautiful memories to bind them all !! Dats why sometimes i love to have a quick tour of these !!

This time its school memories..in brief..(will be writing in detail soon)Fighting for the first seat in chemistry class and fighting for the last seat in english class. It was fun, crushes on teachers (bunty-bubli couple ....lolz dont worry if u dont get it, its for my jkps buddies) , bunking biology lectures, chalk fights.., singing weird songs, the tabla on the benches, playing football/cricket in the class..beatin the hell out of the oder person, weird nicknames anyone cud ever imagine...jyanti, aanti, kadu, doru, glodu, rally, !

God damn i hate to believe that those days are over ! Waitin for the day wen the time machine gets invented. Till then i happpy wid my present and desperately waiting for such lovely moments in future..

Bless Ya !!

(This post is yet to be continued...my school memories are not yet over)