Love : HOME MADE :)

Really really really happy today, today my second day without a teenage tag attached with me, i had thought i would feel low about it..but its other way around !! Feelin so good, major reason is that my first two papers went good specially today's one..!! Apart from that my birthday went superb. Got some very very unexpected calls from very old friends.... some unexpected sms's and loads of expected wishes !!

Good night kiss from mom and good morning kiss from dad, everything was so much lovely ! An 3 hour talk with one of my closest friends was the icing on the cake...ahh cake how can i forget that..see the picture above..my mom made it for me !

One of my school buddies commented on this cake pic "tu 2 yrs ka hua :P"....abh afterall for my mom mein hamesha do saal ka hi rahuga (for my mom i will always be of 2 years age :P )

PS. Life going so much good. Smiling all the time since last few 5-6 days..no tension of exams yet they going so good :P ...But the coming exams are quite tough, hope i maintain my smile through the next 4 papers ! I had thought of not blogging till 9th october...but i cudnt resist sharing my birthday cake with all my blogger friends !! Luv u all...take care *hugs*

first step

Just was going through some random pics, and found this one. Instant question striked me.."am i still that innocent as i used to be durin that time of my life..??" and there was no answer..!! Clearly it seemed like i had doubts on my innocence :(

what ruined it, what made me have doubts...lots of questions with clearly no answer ! But whatever the reason was, whatever the situation was....neither it were my frnds, nor were my parents but i know one person who i am confident enough to say that he ruined my innocence..and that person is me..

"We always have a choice.." it took me so long so understand this, till then i opted for some wrong choices. There are trillion moments in my life, which i regret of making the wrong choice!

But today the being the last day of month and last day of my excellent summer break....i am planning to leave past in past and beginning a new life with all the same philosophies of mine but with 100% more innocence and happiness.. :)

Wish me luck..!

P.S.

Was just about to post this, mom came to my room..wishing me gud nite along with a gud nite kiss..no better way of beginning new life without the wishes from my mummy after all she guide's us for the first step of our life..

Parent's Day :)

~ The joys of parents are secret, and so are their griefs and fears: they cannot utter the one, nor will they utter the other ~

"Main Kabhi Batlata Nahin

Par Andhere Se Darta Hoon Main Maa
Yun To Main,Dikhlata Nahin
Teri Parwaah Karta Hoon Main Maa
Tujhe Sab Hain Pata, Hain Na Maa
Tujhe Sab Hain Pata,,Meri Maa"

"Papa kehte hain bada naam karega
Beta hamara aisa kaam karega
Magar yeh to koi na jaane
Ki meri manzil hai kahan"

Two beautiful songs for the two beautiful people in my life whom i luckily call as my parents. Its been 19 years they are with me guiding me through each and every single moment of life. And the most difficult part tolerating my cries, arguments, useless needs. There have been times when i used to feel lonely being the only sibling, but they helped me come out of it beautifully...! And its been lately i feel the parent-kid tuning is getting stronger and stronger. Common liking of me and my dad...ice-creams, music lovers, long drives, gadget lover, excellency in poor jokes... add to the father-son bonding !! And mummy on the other hand always ready to hear every bit of thing happened around the time , though i trouble her too much...but she's always there for me ! And the first one to judge my mood..and knows how to revive my smile..!

Being over protective about me makes me get a lill irritated some times, but then i think they are my parents and they have to be that way only.As there is a famous saying "To understand your parents' love you must raise children yourself."- but i dont need to do that, i beautifully understand it.

To my Parents From Their budhu Son.. ;)

DON'T SPOIL ME
I know quite well that I ought not to have
all that I ask for. I'm only testing you.

DON'T BE AFRAID TO BE FIRM WITH ME
I prefer it. It makes me feel more secure.

DON'T LET ME FORM BAD HABITS
I have to rely on you to detect them in early stages.

DON'T MAKE ME FEEL SMALLER THAN I AM
It makes me feel stupidly “big”.

DON'T CORRECT ME IN FRONT OF PEOPLE IF YOU CAN HELP IT
I'll take much more notice if you talk quietly with me in private.

DON'T MAKE ME FEEL THAT MY MISTAKES ARE SINS
It upsets my sense of values.

DON'T BE TOO UPSET WHEN I SAY “I HATE YOU”
It isn't you that I hate but your power to thwart me.

DON'T PROTECT ME FROM CONSEQUENCES
I need to learn the painful way sometimes.

DON'T TAKE TOO MUCH NOTICE OF MY SMALL AILMENTS
I am quite capable of trading on them.

DON'T FORGET HOW QUICKLY I AM GROWING UP
It must be very difficult for you to keep pace with me, but please do try.

DON'T MAKE RASH PROMISES
Remember that I feel badly let down when promises are broken.

DON'T FORGET THAT I CAN'T EXPLAIN
MYSELF AS WELL AS I WOULD LIKE
This is why I am not always accurate.

DON'T TAX MY HONESTY TOO MUCH
I am easily frightened into telling lies.

DON'T BE INCONSISTENT
That completely confuses me and makes me lose faith in you.

DON'T PUT ME OFF WHEN I ASK QUESTIONS
If you do you will find that I stop asking and seek my information elsewhere.

DON'T TELL ME MY FEARS ARE SILLY
They are terribly real and you can do much
to reassure me if you try to understand.

DON'T EVER SUGGEST THAT YOU ARE PERFECT OR INFALLIBLE
It gives me too great a shock when I discover that you are neither.

DON'T EVER THINK THAT IT IS BENEATH
YOUR DIGNITY TO APOLOGIZE TO ME
An honest apology makes me feel surprisingly warm towards you.

DON'T FORGET THAT I LOVE EXPERIMENTALLY
I couldn't get on without it, so please put up with it.

DON'T NAG
If you do I shall have to protect myself by appearing deaf.

DON'T FORGET THAT I CAN'T THRIVE
WITHOUT LOTS OF UNDERSTANDING & LOVE
But I don't need to tell you that, do I?

" Wishing U both a happy parent's day "
Luv u..

Your's dumb kid..

Mother's Day

Yea i remember it was mother's day last week.. i think every dutiful child will wish their mother on such a beautiful occasion... I'm just plain handicapped when it comes to such things...its just that i feel plain awkward... this is just for my mummy...

Dear Mummy,

you know i really do remember its mothers day. no i didn't wish you, ..i didn't because i couldn't muster the courage to do it.. i feel the love, even though i want to i cant just walk up to you.. i know its as simple as walking to you and hug you tight and whisper it to you...i just wish i wasn't this way... i wish i could make you feel on top of the world on this day...

i wish i could just get you the breakfast in bed... but i didn't do it because i didn't want you to think i am capable of doing it. i feared that you will make me do it everyday if you knew i could.. :D somethings i just love you doing it... know what?? no matter what happens i love being fed by you.. its not that I'm lazy or i just want to create more troubles for you... its just that i love it this way... no i will never ever admit it to you.. :)

i wish i could gift you something worthwhile... but i cant now... but trust me... i will someday... i will give you a comfortable life, lots of love and all that you deserve but never got...but more than which i will make you proud.. i will be someone and then you can flaunt me with your friends...

know what ma? we have these huge fights... massive ones...and it really bugs me when you back out and get ur mood spoiled... because all i want is for you to fight me..not because i enjoy a good fight[ yea i do..] but i want you to stand up for yourself... you are just to soft hearted..you just are plain lucky you have dad as your hubby who shields you from all hardship.. but i want you to be independent to walk away from dad's shadow and show the world you can.. because i know you can.. and i know how you hate being totally dependent on others... here's something i want to tell you.. yea we do have these serious fights.. i do tell you terrible things.. but an argument doesn't mean i hate you... it just means we have our difference of opinion...it just pains me to see you nurture the wrong notion that i don't care a bit.. i may seem stoic but I'm not... i do care.. believe me i do.. :) nope id never say these things to you ever...

recently i have also started enjoying your endless questions, which i used to hate earlier..!! I love being momma's kid.... love the way u talk with me when i come from college...sharing my daily routine... love the way u hug me, play wid me...try to make me laugh...i love everything....and how can i forget ur lovely delicious dishes...yummy..

you know i truly feel blessed having you as my mom... "go live your life... have the career you want.. I'm there for you.." you have no idea just how much it means to me...with your belief on me...

with lots of love hugs and kisses... i hope dad wont mind will he??.

Here's wishing you a very happy mothers day!! may i be blessed with you as my mom forever and always.... you are my super mom... with your generous heart, kind nature.. tearful ways and you beautiful smile...

mwuaah... that was a smooch in case u dont know......

love you ma... just be the inspiration you are to me always.. and do keep smiling... because you look like a dragon ready to explode when you don't smile :) and that makes me feel scared... :)

your rebellious
Shoona...(i love when u call me by that name...hehe...)