Way Back Into Love

Recently i have been hearing this song "Way Back Into Love" from the movie "Music And Lyrics". Its ausumn, just though of sharing it here.

Do listen this Song , i love it !!

Lyrics :

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Watch At You Tube (Only Lyrics) :



Listen the Song :

	Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore - Way Back Into Love
	Found at bee mp3 search engine

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Enjoy :)

Is it a walk to remember ??

"My blog is a Walk through my life full of beautiful and sad moments; dreams & philosophies !
Its definately a Walk To Remember"

Two Days Without My Mobile

Most of you might believe there's nothing difficult in it, but its like a terrible nightmare for me ! But i did gave it a try four days back. Though i have also experienced 24hrs without a mobile a month back, but that time i had the alternative of my daddi's cell. This time i decided not to touch any cellphone for complete 48hrs.

It was 3 late at night, i switched off my mobile ! It was a strange feeling, i never had switched off my mobile purposely. But before that i had made sure that there were no "To Do's " or calender entries in my next two days schedule. Now since i have shifted to broadband i didn't miss my gprs at all, which i definitely missed last time i stayed away from my cell for 24hrs. I had kept my cell on my side table. And continued surfing online with the idea to forget that i ever had a mobile. Within few hours i slept, so night went fine.

Next day, yawning and half in sleep i picked my cell to see the time. Then i suddenly remembered about my "two days without mobile thing". So i locked the cell in my almira so that i couldn't repeat the same mistake again. This thing made me realise i had no clock in my room, i was watching the time throughout these years either through my mobile or laptop. So the 1st thing i did was setting a clock in my room. Morning went fine, but the afternoon was not...calls from my dad, cousins, friends..on my landline all shouting why the hell is your mobile switched off. I gave a common reply to all "some techincal defect with my cellone.." Friends had planned for a evening movie. This time i didnt had the option to add alarm for the movie in my cell, so my brain cells had to alarm me this time. Rest of the day went smooth as most of the people who wanted to contact me called me on landline. And surprizingly by evening i also remembered about the movie which i had doubt on myself. So the day ended fine. But at 1 at night i desperately missed my cell. As i used to have chats with some close buddies. So i decided to go online and luckily i found most of them online on Gtalk. Ahh what a relief.., did the faltu (useless) talks !! And went off to sleep early that day.

Second day, actually went very good. Seriously speaking i didnt had imagined myself to be so comfortable without my cell but definitely i was. Though throughout these two days i used to keep touching the pockets of my trousers, which i think i had a habbit of doing, checking all the time for any missed calls or sms's. But it was a different feeling this time, whatever it was it was a good one.

It was 3 late at night; 48 hours completed.

87 messages (max were the usual fwd msgs)
34 missed call alerts

And most importantly an ausumn xperience

We Always have A choice

"Whatever comes our way, what ever battle we have raging inside...us, we always have a choice. My friend Harry Osbon taught me that; He chose to be the best of himself. It's the choices that make us who we are"

-Peter parker, (Spiderman-3)

PS. I tried making the wrong choice, suffered a lot consequences ! Now with the right choice and enjoying the life again :)

Windy vision of life..

“To the person who does not know where he wants to go there is no favorable wind.”

— Seneca

The vision is to have faith in what you cannot see and hope to see.

I know that I get carried away with the sadness around me, in me and within me and somehow I trail off track where I recall me, as being created to love and be loved. Nevertheless I have to live the life I have, best in a relationship, every step of the way and in those stepping ups and downs I will know and also be known.

Every time I think of how and why I am alive and have the life I live and I forget the reasons, the visions and the aspirations. But like me, you should always remember that our story is important and that we're part of a bigger story. We need to know that OUR LIFE MATTERS.

The life we live, in the place we live, is tattered, shattered, broken. My once upon a time friend said that life is hard for most people most of the time, even for him who smiles on and on and never sheds a tear. I believe that all of us are familiar with pain; that all of us live with questions, and all of us get stuck in moments. We need to know that we're not alone in the places we feel stuck and helpless. Yes there are some dead ends which will make us change our course, most importantly, the vision is to see beyond the wall. After the demise of a life I had craved for 19 years, I thought it was it, my eyes couldn't see what my heart wanted it to see, but then after much prayer and faith the vision appeared, I could see me, I could see my happily ever after. So now when people tell me don't walk on dreams, I feel like punching their nose and telling them that just because their sight does not allow them to envision, it doesn't mean it cannot be achieved. Will power makes a lot happen. Vision makes a lot happen.

Rescue is possible, independence is possible, and choice is possible. God is the most beneficent and the merciful and he still pays heed to you. Eyes do not hold a vision, your sense of vision is in the depth of your heart, dig it, pump it, plug it!

The vision is that we learn to love our friends, and love ourselves enough to get around with helping others to see what we can see.

The vision is better endings. Happy and prosperous endings. The vision is people finding life worth living and finding the heart to love on without being scared of the consequences of a broken heart.

The vision is the intuit that we're more loved than we'll ever know.

The vision is the belief that our best days are ahead.

"Vision is the art of seeing the invisible."
God bless !

Friends..all the way

Most will say this typical filmy dialogue- "ladka aur ladki kabhi dost nahi bansakte" [a girl and guy can never be friends] does this mean opposite gender attraction and sexuality ruins what invariably would have been a good friendship?

i however beg to differ, being brought up in co-ed school ; and now when i study in a co-educational institutional college, i firmly believe that a guy and a girl can not just be friends but good friends at that. it is a popular notion that yin and yang makes a whole, this is applicable not only to a couple in love but in friendship too. i wonder why parents adopt this attitude towards their kids, where they tend to question the nature of their friendship when they see their daughter/son get too friendly with a friend of the opposite gender...thank God it is not the case in my family but i have seen many such families in my friend circle and this is not just applicable to parents but other peers too. what makes people raise their eyebrow to friendship and so called categories of friendship?

does really attraction and sexuality ruins what could have been a great friendship? my answer would be yes and no. firstly, when two people find that they are very compatible as friends and enjoy life the fullest they tend to wander just a bit thinking that good friends can end up as good lovers too, sometimes it works out sometimes it don't. and then again sometimes two friends don't look at each other as anything more than friends. this is all too complicated isn't it? actually friendship means different things to different people. its relative. so how we approach it and how we want to deal with friends and friendship is entirely depends on each person, there is hardly any rule book to it, to each his own.

it is so weird to think, that with time a guy and a girl friendship find social acceptance on the other side same gender friends are often frowned at :P! what has the world come to really? good friends are really hard to come by and when they do one must cling onto them. many of my acquaintances find it hard to believe that i have found durable friendships in the world wide web; who cares ultimately the friendship counts, the medium is irrelevant. isn't it? virtual or real friends matter the most. we made friends and friendship should not be based gender or sexual orientation of the friendship, but the feelings that is shared should be most important.

Today i saw two legendary bollywood flicks - "Jaane Tu" And "Kuch Kuch Hoota Hai.."Both having some common ending, two best friends of college falling in love at the end. After watching such movies, views do get change for some time...as i said earlier these things get really complex sometimes..!

Most of the times i hear people say.. "If they cant be good friends they cant be great lovers" doesn't it contradict my above thoughts; actually i myself am a big contradiction to my own views, as i myself have fallen in love with my two really good friends of mine ! On the contrary i have this special friend, i love her a lot but she is just a friend.. (Now i am leaving some homework for u people, i hope you won't disappoint me)

So with jumbled up conclusion at the end i want you people who are reading this blog-post to give your opinions and please give your honest opinions , ur experiences or whatever you feel about this topic. I would really appreciate that.

hasta la vista,

Home Alone

Warning : This post could be somewhat boring so if you dont have some time to spare, please dont go ahead. If you do go ahead, please dont complaint me later.

Its 4'o clock in the morning, lost within myself, have nothing to do (though few assignments, practical files and a sessional to study for but i am not in a mood to do them now..); sitting alone in my room lookin' out my window some random thoughts flowing through my mind, calm and cool breeze through the window kissing my body is tinkling me...!! Its strange sometimes when i behave like this, i keep thinking about something and few minutes later i forget what i was thinking...!

Last 48 hours have been bag full of emotions for me, some smiles, some sorrows and some weird feelings, small fight with my cousin, it was cold war sorts...if i tell you the issue you will laugh so better leave it but this small fight turned out to be a major one. This followed a small suggestion from my special friend which i took somewhat in a negative way and as a result i landed myself in a weird situation. And later i got angry with myself as the suggestion was for my benefit only. But the evening had a surprise for me, an old buddy from my school gave a surprise visit..it was superb, i cant explain how happy i was that time. We spent 3 hours together gossiped, gossiped and gossiped. Talked about school times, gave a ring to some old classmates and talked on loudspeaker...it was total fun. Next Day was full of boredums, was home alone...so spent maximum time online surfing some old bookmarks and googling some new gadgets. Was getting bugged up alone in the house, there was nothing interesting on television as usual...so it was my i-pod which came to my survival. Later that day i again had a fight with someone really close and it was all due to me as usual..! This fight cudnt make me sleep whole last night...thinking about it i have gone mad, so i finally decided to stop thinking for it for a while..! So you finally travelled my boring home alone time snap of 48 hours....!

Oh gosh its 5'o clock, i have spent one hour just to write a single paragraph, the breeze is getting colder....the birds have started twittering, and i love that sound....i still remember way back in time during school days these birds used to give me wake up call...my mom used to say "rahil uth jaa, teri birdies aa gayi hai...tujhe uthane...school time ho gaya hai.."...and the strangest fact was that they didnt woke me up during sundays.., i know you won't be believeing me. Talking about my mom, she has gone to naanke (her father's place..) and its been a month..i am really missing her. Two days back i was travelling in a matador, in the seat next to me a small boy was resting on her mother's shoulder with his head towards me. He had big attractive eyes, throughout the journey he was looking in my eyes and smiling so innocently, i was so lost in him and didnt realised when i got lost in the times when i used to have fun with my mom. Later i realised i was also smiling, it felt so great..Those days were ausumn..wish we could go back to those times.

The darkness outside the window has started dissolving away, and i am still not feeling sleepy. Those who have survived reading this post.. i congratulate them and i dont want to torture them any further. So i am leaving now, with my i-pod plugged in my ears, me going for a walk.

Take care and have a good day ahead. God Bless.