Home Alone

Warning : This post could be somewhat boring so if you dont have some time to spare, please dont go ahead. If you do go ahead, please dont complaint me later.

Its 4'o clock in the morning, lost within myself, have nothing to do (though few assignments, practical files and a sessional to study for but i am not in a mood to do them now..); sitting alone in my room lookin' out my window some random thoughts flowing through my mind, calm and cool breeze through the window kissing my body is tinkling me...!! Its strange sometimes when i behave like this, i keep thinking about something and few minutes later i forget what i was thinking...!

Last 48 hours have been bag full of emotions for me, some smiles, some sorrows and some weird feelings, small fight with my cousin, it was cold war sorts...if i tell you the issue you will laugh so better leave it but this small fight turned out to be a major one. This followed a small suggestion from my special friend which i took somewhat in a negative way and as a result i landed myself in a weird situation. And later i got angry with myself as the suggestion was for my benefit only. But the evening had a surprise for me, an old buddy from my school gave a surprise visit..it was superb, i cant explain how happy i was that time. We spent 3 hours together gossiped, gossiped and gossiped. Talked about school times, gave a ring to some old classmates and talked on loudspeaker...it was total fun. Next Day was full of boredums, was home alone...so spent maximum time online surfing some old bookmarks and googling some new gadgets. Was getting bugged up alone in the house, there was nothing interesting on television as usual...so it was my i-pod which came to my survival. Later that day i again had a fight with someone really close and it was all due to me as usual..! This fight cudnt make me sleep whole last night...thinking about it i have gone mad, so i finally decided to stop thinking for it for a while..! So you finally travelled my boring home alone time snap of 48 hours....!

Oh gosh its 5'o clock, i have spent one hour just to write a single paragraph, the breeze is getting colder....the birds have started twittering, and i love that sound....i still remember way back in time during school days these birds used to give me wake up call...my mom used to say "rahil uth jaa, teri birdies aa gayi hai...tujhe uthane...school time ho gaya hai.."...and the strangest fact was that they didnt woke me up during sundays.., i know you won't be believeing me. Talking about my mom, she has gone to naanke (her father's place..) and its been a month..i am really missing her. Two days back i was travelling in a matador, in the seat next to me a small boy was resting on her mother's shoulder with his head towards me. He had big attractive eyes, throughout the journey he was looking in my eyes and smiling so innocently, i was so lost in him and didnt realised when i got lost in the times when i used to have fun with my mom. Later i realised i was also smiling, it felt so great..Those days were ausumn..wish we could go back to those times.

The darkness outside the window has started dissolving away, and i am still not feeling sleepy. Those who have survived reading this post.. i congratulate them and i dont want to torture them any further. So i am leaving now, with my i-pod plugged in my ears, me going for a walk.

Take care and have a good day ahead. God Bless.