Mother's Day

Yea i remember it was mother's day last week.. i think every dutiful child will wish their mother on such a beautiful occasion... I'm just plain handicapped when it comes to such things...its just that i feel plain awkward... this is just for my mummy...

Dear Mummy,

you know i really do remember its mothers day. no i didn't wish you, ..i didn't because i couldn't muster the courage to do it.. i feel the love, even though i want to i cant just walk up to you.. i know its as simple as walking to you and hug you tight and whisper it to you...i just wish i wasn't this way... i wish i could make you feel on top of the world on this day...

i wish i could just get you the breakfast in bed... but i didn't do it because i didn't want you to think i am capable of doing it. i feared that you will make me do it everyday if you knew i could.. :D somethings i just love you doing it... know what?? no matter what happens i love being fed by you.. its not that I'm lazy or i just want to create more troubles for you... its just that i love it this way... no i will never ever admit it to you.. :)

i wish i could gift you something worthwhile... but i cant now... but trust me... i will someday... i will give you a comfortable life, lots of love and all that you deserve but never got...but more than which i will make you proud.. i will be someone and then you can flaunt me with your friends...

know what ma? we have these huge fights... massive ones...and it really bugs me when you back out and get ur mood spoiled... because all i want is for you to fight me..not because i enjoy a good fight[ yea i do..] but i want you to stand up for yourself... you are just to soft hearted..you just are plain lucky you have dad as your hubby who shields you from all hardship.. but i want you to be independent to walk away from dad's shadow and show the world you can.. because i know you can.. and i know how you hate being totally dependent on others... here's something i want to tell you.. yea we do have these serious fights.. i do tell you terrible things.. but an argument doesn't mean i hate you... it just means we have our difference of opinion...it just pains me to see you nurture the wrong notion that i don't care a bit.. i may seem stoic but I'm not... i do care.. believe me i do.. :) nope id never say these things to you ever...

recently i have also started enjoying your endless questions, which i used to hate earlier..!! I love being momma's kid.... love the way u talk with me when i come from college...sharing my daily routine... love the way u hug me, play wid me...try to make me laugh...i love everything....and how can i forget ur lovely delicious dishes...yummy..

you know i truly feel blessed having you as my mom... "go live your life... have the career you want.. I'm there for you.." you have no idea just how much it means to me...with your belief on me...

with lots of love hugs and kisses... i hope dad wont mind will he??.

Here's wishing you a very happy mothers day!! may i be blessed with you as my mom forever and always.... you are my super mom... with your generous heart, kind nature.. tearful ways and you beautiful smile...

mwuaah... that was a smooch in case u dont know......

love you ma... just be the inspiration you are to me always.. and do keep smiling... because you look like a dragon ready to explode when you don't smile :) and that makes me feel scared... :)

your rebellious
Shoona...(i love when u call me by that name...hehe...)